Sunday, August 29, 2010

The Legacy...Lives

It's so hard for me to believe that it has officially been a year since the death of Michael Jackson. It's just something that is very difficult for me to wrap my head around, and I don't think i'll ever fully grasp his death. I woke up this morning to hear the faint sounds of "Billie Jean" from the terrace across from mine. I have superb hearing lol. Then my next door neighbors were playing "Smooth criminal" and "You rock my world".
I was jamming right along with them too! Ever since I was a baby maybe even before I could talk I was humming Mj tunes. He along with my other Idols, (Jimi Hendrix,Jim Morrison,Prince,Stevie Wonder,John Lennon,Janis Joplin, Janet Jackson,Stan Lee,Frank Sinatra, Paul Newman, Clint Eastwood, Marilyn Monroe, Elizabeth Taylor, Gwen Stefani,Pharrell Williams, Timbaland,Madonna,and Diana Ross)
hold such specials places in my heart. Mj, in every sense of the word "literal" literally re-defined music and theatrics as we know it. He constructed an entire new culture of music and video production. On another scale he contributed many trends in fashion and accesories to the fashion universe.
More than anything he has truly touched millions of lives, whether you got to go to one of his concerts or sat home broke with your friends watching it, dreaming of getting to touch his hand. His music was one of the main inspirations and continues to be throughout my life. He is just magical to watch and brings out a certain child-like quality in all those that are caught in his gaze;if even for a moment.
From now until forever his music and ever expanding legacy will grow and refine with age and inspire millions everywhere...
MJ, I wish you knew how much you have touched my life and my heart...
Peace and love everyone.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

And then there were six

I got this done on August 24th 2010.
I am honoring my love and admiration for a musician that has literally changed the way I will forever look at rock music as a whole, since I was a kid. Jimi Hendrix continues among others to motivate and inspire me along with fueling my passion for life and creativity.

peace and love everyone.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

In My Head

"Come close to me my love...sit here with me", he says.
He let me look into those dark and burning eyes of his, oh how I love them.
With every step I take in his direction, my heart runs through my chest.
My mind is drunk with dizzyness, perhaps I shall lay down and rest.

An Immense dark scarlett shadow stands over me, breathing fire onto my neck; slowly raising its hand gently up the small of my back, tracing every outline of my body.
"Have you rested to your hearts content my darling?", he says to me. "Yes my love, for I am fully restored now", I say.

Again and again i think to myself "Is this but a dream, or an alternate means to my reality?'', one can never know I guess.
Just then an orchestra strikes up the most beautiful and unfamiliar tune I have ever heard in my life.
The clashing of the symbols and gentle harmonies of the violins send my mind into an trance.
The charm of the music is one that is undeniable, one that can easily seduce ones soul.
The orchestra continues to beckon me, as I begin to answer it.

"Are you familiar with the waltz my lovely little flower?", he says. "I have never done the...",just then he grabs my waist, pulls me closer and says "Now we shall dance". We spin into the clouds, dance into the many galaxies, he dips me over the roaring oceans and then lifts me over the mountains.
The bass drum competes with my heart in the fast pace beating with each approaching second.

I am nervous, afraid, and yet fearless all in one instance. How can this be?
Is this creature blinding my emotions?
Is this all some kind of twisted illusion, that I can't break free from?
Am I going to be alright, after all let me not forget he is the root of all the most evil and cruel sources in the world.
At his hand lays all form of destruction, so then how and why does my heart flutter when his hand emabraces my own?

"Am I to be your captor oh lord?", I ask.
"From the very moment I heard your sweet voice say "Please don't hurt me" I knew your would be the soul that I would belong to for all eternity, know you are free to choose what you desire", he replied.
He made a statement, while raising a question.
I can't seem to think or process thoughts right now.
I choose to stay in the midst of his arms, as we continue to dance in sync with the monsterous orchestra.

For the first time, this is a love that has made me feel alive.
A wise love.
A brave love.
A true love.
Our passion is otherworldly.
His gaze into my eyes has frozen all time.

This dance, just one dance with the devil has been etched into my memory forever.
How can this dark,sinister,heartless ruler somehow seemed to have developed a heart?
"For my thousands of years of dwelling on this earth, have I never fell so hard or so fast for a human as beautiful as you", his voice echoed over the sea. "You have casted a spell upon me".

Who knew I was capable of wooing this kind of, well, what should I call him?
Have I turned him into a softie?
I guess I really do possess a power over him I never knew i had.
The dark sky begins to lighten, as the sun rises.
"I made a special locket for you my treasure, for you to have with you always", I say

I Turn around only to find that his shadow is no longer with me.
Where has he gone?
Was my love too much for him?
I look up only to see a statue, with his grizzly face carved into it.
Had he been a stone all this time?
Am I really going mad?
I step away from the statue to get a full view of his body to realize, yes this is him, my love turned into marble stone.

My heart is confused and filled with hurt.
The violent winds burst through the room and blow the statue over.
I run as fast as I can to break the fall of the statue, but I am more than past due.
I screamed unlike I have ever before, my body errupting into shakes.
I stretch out my hands and curse the wretched winds of the heavens.

I look down to find my love broken into a million pieces.
I lean over the remains and poor out endless tears.
Now my love is lost.
Now my heart is gone.
My eyes cold with anger.
My hands hot with fury.

"Come close to me my love...sit here with me", a voice muttered.
"But,how did you..." I say.
"I am capable of many, many things", he says with a laugh breaking through to a smile

A few months ago I wrote this poem based off of a dream that I had.

Sunday, August 15, 2010


So I've got to tell you guys,
I LOVE Kat Von D! I am huge fan of her and her work on the show LA INK.
I have so much respect for her and what she does as a person and as a woman.
Ever since I was a kid I always new I wanted tattoos and piercings in the future, but was very apprehensive about moving forward with that idea. However, the older I got I realized it seemed more and more like a possiblity.
My mother who started out wanting to get a tattoo of her own seemed to grow out of that stage and HATES and kind of markings on ones skin. She thinks it can misrepresent a persons character and image. Clearly everyone is very much entitled to their own opinion about everything, and i've got to say I respectfully disagree! You can't always expect to have some kind interior resolve with every single person because that's just not life, plus it would be so odd wouldn't it? haha.
So when I turned 16, I knew in my heart that more than ever I really wanted to get a tattoo. I began to do my research because I was NOT about to have someone ink me up and then one day I look down and my skin looks like complete disgust! hahaha.
I weighed every option since my skin is ultra sensitive and allergy prone and became dissapointed when I thought my tattoo dreams had set sail for good.
Surprisgingly it turns out my sin responded really well to the inkage and I was so happy.

My friends have talked many times about all getting matching tattoos to signify and permanently forge the bonds of our friendship, but that ended up fading into the air due to reasons I still don't know lol. The idea still lingers in my mind and who knows maybe one day we will rekindle that old flame but for now it has yet to be seen.
My biggest influences in life are music, fashion, pain, passion,love, art, my friends and family. I mean the list could go on for ages but I had to water it down just a smidge! The summer of 08' was my very first tattoo. I got a music note and two stars on my upper left thigh. I didn't like the artist who did it because he didn't do what i asked him to so operation RE-DO is soon to be in motion..smh. The best and most fun part about getting my first one was that my friends and sisters went with me and the wait was a crillion years which was complete tom foolery but eh, what could I have done?
I made it a tradition to get one every year following and so far I have stuck with it which I am proud of. I think the thing I really like about getting tattoos is that they represent a piece of me as whole. Each of them I hold close to my heart and still remember how the excitement of each one felt. Music rules my life and I aspire to be a musician and knew I had to get something to express my great love for it. I love the arabic language and I am part lebanese and knew i wanted something to express my love for that.
I love love and I took a quote from a line in a poem that I wrote about how being in love can send you into such a lovely and peaceful state. To shake things up, I got the quote translated half in two of my favourite languages French and Italian. I got another arabic tattoo this time translating my name in it. I got one of my all time favourite objects, a boombox (drawn in the classic 80's style I used to have a simular boombox until it broke). I wasn't fully satisfied and decided to add to it my longtime love Hello Kitty. My grandfather gave me a hello kitty stuffed toy and she was ruined in the laundry.
Since I was a kid I have loved her. I held that stuffed toy close to my heart because it was such a precious gift from my grandfather and reminded me of the special times we both shared with one another. When he passed in 2007, I felt like I had nothing left of his except a picture and due to my knee surgery was unable to attend his funeral and felt a deep hurt unlike I have ever felt in my life. He along with my mother and grandmother in my family are my heroes, and looking at that hello kitty tattoo reminds me of all those precious times we had together.
One of my biggest musical inspirations for nearly everything in my life aside from others is the great Jimi Hendrix. I knew from the gate I wanted to honor the man who stuck with me and carried me throughout so many instances in my life. He is just to me what I aspire to be in a musician and as a person. He was and still is the most incredible human beings on the face of this planet. Rock music would be nothing without his major contributions to it. He has achieved so much in a wonderful career cut so short and I will always hold him dear to me, plus he is my hippie brother hahaha.
Kat Von D thank you for giving me the confidence to express myself through my body art and for being a kick ass human being.
Rock on everyone...and always dare to defy stereotypical gravity.

Saturday, August 14, 2010


So it has been uber long since i have been able to keep up with my blog postings thanks my wifi connection that was an EPIC FAIL! Thankfully I now have a router so those troubled internet connection days have bitten the dust! I have to say that this was the most fun summer that i've had in a very long time.
Everyday was filled with memorable adventures. Sucks that my camera is on it's death bed so I couldn't really document it the way I wanted to but thankfully my friends have cameras. Sadly I am still waiting for them to give those awesome pics lol. I piled together a sort of half of my summer collage of pictures.
I went out to a lot of awesome bars and lounges throughout the summer and had some pretty ass kicking drinks too! One bar that I really liked is called "The Kettle Black",and their Cosmos are off the chain man. I always wanted to have a bar to call my cheers and one bar that I like that I am starting to call my cheers is called "Down The Hatch" and the other is "Fat Black Pussycat". Great place to just relax and kick back with your buddies.
Earlier this summer I got my 5th tattoo of a boombox and then later on I added my favorite cartoon character of ALL time (aside from Strawberry Shortcake and Minnie Mouse) Hello Kitty to it. It appears on my left inner ankle and boy did it hurt like the flames of hell but towards the first 5 min. I fell asleep! lol For some reason the needle is really relaxing to me, hahaha. I have a pic of Madonna back in her prime and I love that picture of her!
It's just so timeless and classic! The first pic I just thought was very cool because I LOVE black and white pictures. I snapped a few pics of drinks I had at a few different bars and boy were they super tasty! So I hope that you all enjoy these last few weeks of summer because once the cold funky weather looms over's a rap! lol